My mum always say that I'm unfeeling and am not a human coz i don't show any emotions..lol. Whereas my mum's friend, a very shrewd and perceptive woman, said that I do have emotions [ thanks for my rescue ] though I hide all of it. How cold do I seem? lol, I'm a very emotional person though I must admit what everyone sees on my face may not be what I'm feeling. How's that for sentimental and emotional? It is true that I don't feel anything at times, except numbness. I've learnt to hide behind false emotions so as to protect myself from others, which may seem very weird, right? I've been hurt so many times that I realised that it would be difficult for me to really fit in anywhere, more like i would be treated like an outcast. Reading what i've just typed, all of them sound like those psychological gibberish. whatever it is. It has been raining the whole day...
What that is true for now may not always be.

Went to my new school yesterday. Crescent girls' was quite nice. It was a 15 min walk from the mrt station to the school and 45 min commute from Tampines to Redhill. Altogether, my mum spent $372.40 on my books and some school supplies excluding my uniform. Now there's a problem: how do i tie the tie. -.- honestly, I don't know how to tie the tie and my mum doesn't too. diaos...
the uniform was a pale yellow blouse and a dull blue skirt. I had to walk up quite a steep slope to the entrance. Everywhere there are slopes... There will be mass run every Tuesdays and Thursdays-at least that's what my co-form teacher said. I have two from teachers by the way, one male, one female. Only two classes had one form teacher only. There are eight classes : 1C1. 1C2, 1C3, 1G1, 1G2,1G3 , 1S1 and 1S2. Notice they are named in the initials of the school name and school values. Courtesy, Generosity, and Sincerity.
I'm in 1C1, same class as Jolene. 1S1 and 1S2 are the ones taking higher mother tongue and that's how we are seperated. I didnt see any Malays or Indians in my class so I think G section are those that take up tamil or malayu. Not sure though. Now, the only problem is the tie!

It's the common question now, "which school do you want to get into?"
I know they mean well, but, I really don't know how to answer anymore. Sometimes, I hope to get into the same school as my friends and into a school that's nearby. Sometimes I hope to get into the school I like and has a good reputation but is 1 hour 15 min from my house. It fills me with confusion. My mum thinks that everyone will have a goal in their lives. Guess mine hasn't appeared. Once, I was ambitious, knowing what I want, what I'm waiting for. It's surprising how everything can stop, and disappear within reach. It seems that all your dreams can just fade away, all so fragile.
The world strives to be perfect but that's impossible. Trying so hard to be perfect is already an imperfection in itself.

yeah, im at changi airport now, trying to kill time before my flight. going to bangkok, so wouldn't be using the comp till next tuesday. will arrive there in the early evening i guess, oh well, i only got 15 min to use and there's only 11 min more...
my mum's airsick though...she's a bit scared of airplanes...lol
trying to kill time

I watched episodes one all the way to episode twelve of Tsubasa just now on youtube. I have some of their avatars - used one already. The song "Blaze" is also nice. Sadly, all the Tsubasa blogskins are quite awful and not really nice...so not changing to a Tsubasa blogskin yet. It's quite sad you know, Sakura has no recollection of Syaoran coz he gave their relationship as a price to the Dimensional Witch, Yuuko, who told him in return that he has to travel to alternate realities, in other words, he has to travel to other worlds to collect fragments of Sakura's memory, which are in the form of feathers which are her heart. Unfortunately, Sakura will have no recollection of Syaoran even after getting her memory back. It's a romance fantasy actually. Because their relationship is what is most dearest to Syaoran, he has to sacrifice it to Yuuko so that Sakura has a chance of living. Fye had to give his tattoo on his back as his price and Kurogane, his sword, White Dragon. Yuuko handed them Mokona Modoki and another creature to guide them to different worlds and to help them. hmmm, gonna get my lunch now...

Yuuko, "There's no such thing as coincidence in life, but I believe only in the inevitable."

I hate cockroaches!!! today, when i woke up and walked into the kitchen, i saw a stupid cockroach. and...i SCREAMED like mad. How would you feel if you're still bleary-eyed and suddenly see your sworn enemy on the floor crawling towards you?! think the whole block of flats heard my ear-piercing scream. it broke my loudest personal record. the last time i screamed so loud was when i saw a lizard in the bathroom while washing my hair.
*shudders*

Watched Tsubasa Reservoir Chronicle this afternoon. Syaoran, Sakura, Fye and Kurogane with Mokona left for another world to look for another fragment of Sakura's lost memories - another of her feather, those that she had lost. It was quite pitiful...she woke up but forgot who Syaoran was. My favourite character has to be Fye though. I like the way they drew him. Mokona is so cute! That fluffy ball of white! Why doesn't anyone watch Tsubasa? It's a Japanese anime. Wait, I like all Japanese anime anyway and this is no exception. Hmmm, think you all will be hearing Jap songs soon...coz i juz found some tsubasa songs, lol. I've already changed my song from English to Korean so maybe, just maybe, there will be Japanese...
I just can't stop gushing about tsubasa - well, I don't have any other things to type about anyway. It was surprising that Sakura's feather was hidden in one of the boys' [ uh, forgot his name... ] kudan. i like Syaoran's fire Kudan. I guess no one knows what on earth am i talking about. The show's on channel U and is at 4.30pm every Sunday. Hey, this jap song sound nice...listening to some tsubasa chronicle songs now.
Anime is a fantasy world where all rules are changeable in the artist's drawing