My life now is more like stagnant waters.
The only ongoing stuff is homework, assessments, frustrating projects and countless insecurities. My handwriting these days is so messy! You know, my handwriting was actually really messy during kinder garden school till primary three. It was like, till primary four that it started to look legible. During primary six it started to look cursive as the year before [2005] Mrs Dieu taught us cursive and I was influenced by that I supposed. This year, my handwriting is getting messy and cursive. Such that my mum also says it's really trashy as my writing is sprawled and tilted...sob.
Yesterday's Youth day celebration was quite weird. The last item, four female teachers [ including Ms Vicky!! ] danced to "Buttons". Then midway four other males came in. Mr Goh looked so awkward sitting on the chair being flirtatious, LOL. When Mr Choy went on stage, he was quite poor thing. The rest of the classes cheered for their teachers whereas we remained silent. Lols.
I wonder when we will actually get the class jerseys. Fell asleep during History . Ms Ow and Mr Siow are quite kind - they didn't say anything when either Tessa or me fell asleep during their lessons >< . I wore my uniform yesterday, much to the chagrin of Sihui, Deb and Pam.
On Thursday, it was like, the first time the Level Discipline didn't comment on my skirt. Well, she didn't comment on anyone's skirt XD. But before that, she told me that my skirt is quite short and that the next time, she may give me a demerit if I don't do anything about it: such as lengthening it - which I didn't. Before it was my turn for spotcheck, I kept pulling down my skirt ><>< Maybe for once Sihui is right...Anyway, if I pull it down, it's really below my knees so for now, I'm not gonna do anything ^^.

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Got a real shock this morning. 'Coz I used to have a runny nose problem every morning last time but since the start of this year it already seems to disappear [dont ask me why, I dont understand too] . Suddenly today it came back and I was sniffing like hell... It was uncontrollable - my nose kept running. It even more shocking when my hand was bloody. Don't misunderstand, I don't wipe my mucus with my hand usually, it's just that I was covering my nose while grabbing a tissue.
This is the first time my nose is bleeding for no apparent reason. In fact, in my whole life, this will only be the second time my nose bled. The last time was coz I was in an accident that very nearly broke my nose. Anyway, Jimin told me to run to the ladies, which I did. Was so yucky, the sink was bloody also when I washed up my nose. My mum says I'm too heaty while Yimin said something like the air is too dry for me. It started bleeding again during assembly - was such a coincidence that the topic was bullying. I gave Pamela and Pearlyn a shock though...
Btw, we are shifting classrooms this coming Friday! The only two things I will miss about being on the third level is that the view from the window is at least better than the one on the first level and that it is much cooler up here [ the fans are superb ]. Otherwise, I will be happy to shift back now... Oh my nose seems like it's gonna bleed again!!

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Sihui! Don't worry if you appear in the obituaries! Remember that time after we got our results, I said that I will attend your funeral? Yeah, I will bring along my piece of paper about how old Orlando Bloom [Orlan Da Bloom] is!! Btw, this is only a joke! ^^
I'm so happy I don't have fever today!!! That means I don't need the blood test after all!!! Yay! Thank goodness! I have a phobia of blood tests. They should be banned or if not, help to numb the pain somehow!! I'm so happy! Now, left afternoon to tackle...If no fever by then, I wouldn't even need to see the doctor again for this week! Whoopee!

There's supposed to be choir today, I'm mugging through those articles today though. Can't imagine that we have to do twenty of them! Anyway, my fever went down after having sufficient medication. It's a damn relapse...just like last year during June. History repeating itself, lol. I'm on antibiotics again and it tastes FOUL. Which may be why I put off visiting the clinic again - Knew that doctor will give me those disgusting pills yet again. Of course, the fever persisted so my mum dragged me to the clinic yesterday morning.
Gosh, went home with five different medicines, I really surpassed myself this time...the last time I had more than this amount of medication was when I was a toddler! lol, anyway, i only need to take four now...my fever has gone =]
I didn't go for choir in the end. They said it will be in the arts con. today. But Elizabeth told me that when she went there, the Sec4s were having their exam their. Weird.
The songs I'd added are some of my favourite songs...Sakura Hiyori is from Bleach and the rest are from Tsubasa...only the one by UVERworld is not from any anime - not that I know of...
Yume No Tsubasa is a great song!! By Miyu Irino [Syaoran] and Yui Makino [Sakura].

Your Personality is Very Rare (INTP)

Your personality type is goofy, imaginative, relaxed, and brilliant. Only about 4% of all people have your personality, including 2% of all women and 6% of all men You are Introverted, Intuitive, Thinking, and Perceiving.

After three days of being cured of flu, I've got a fever.
Woke up at 5am feeling groggy and a splitting headache. I've been getting headaches more frequently this year, hope it's not some illness. When I went back to sleep I was shivering and my throat ached like hell. My mum found it weird when she passed me and found that I was wrapped with my blanket. I was burning and my head and ears were ringing. Now, I have to take that yucky pink fever tablet every three hours. AND, I've not done my phrase book, still left a few more articles to do!!! Really hope I will be able to attend choir this Thursday and Friday. Although I'm not that keen to go for the practices, I will miss out alot of stuff and when I come back I wouldn't know what I'm supposed to do. Like the one practice I missed and when I went back I realised I was in 1.2 section! That's like, different coz the week before I was singing 1.1 section! Plus, there may be new songs coming in every week now....Help!
Feeling really tired. Worn out. Been mugging real hard but now I can't concentrate.
First week: Was laid back
Second week: Had sore throat
Third week:Flu
Fourth week: Fever
And during the march holidays if I remember correctly, I was feverish and had flu too. I have this ability to fall ill during holidays you know. Well, gotta go do my English composition now!


My eyes are hurting. My ears are ringing

You Don't Have a Big Mouth

In fact, you like to keep your life very private. You figure that your personal life is no one's business. And if people try to pry, they'll end up unsuccessful. You're a big mystery to people - and that's fine by you!

You Have a Melancholic Temperament

Introspective and reflective, you think about everything and anything. You are a soft-hearted daydreamer. You long for your ideal life. You love silence and solitude. Everyday life is usually too chaotic for you. Given enough time alone, it's easy for you to find inner peace. You tend to be spiritual, having found your own meaning of life. Wise and patient, you can help people through difficult times. At your worst, you brood and sulk. Your negative thoughts can trap you. You are reserved and withdrawn. This makes it hard to connect to others. You tend to over think small things, making decisions difficult.

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I just took the Naruto personality test that was on Si Hui's blog. The evil character that I am is Zabuza. What an awful name, well, I've never really liked Naruto anyway. They describe him as a swift and silent killer. =]
Well, I've decided to take up drawing again. My mum has been trying to persuade me these past few months to draw again. I was adamant - the only exceptions I made was drawing for Visual Arts. Even for that, I never really tried my best. I was afraid of what I would see. I was afraid of imperfections. Since December I made a decision to quit drawing unless it's really necessary. It was quite painful but it was even painful when I saw how ugly my art was. It was horrible...my paintings started to be sloppish. I couldn't draw Manga anymore. Not even that. Even my still life drawings of plants are horrifying. That was when I told myself to stop drawing, as it seemed that I do not have that talent anymore. My mum was quite upset over that. So began the "Trying to persuade my daughter not to waste her talent" campaign. Lol, kidding.
Anyway, while I was reading the newspaper yesterday, I saw my sketch book at a corner. I picked it up and suddenly just started drawing. At the end I was exhilarated. I designed three lady's suits, plus a life drawing of a plant. That made me realised what I've been doing these months was just moping around. Such that I never really tried my best in all I'd done.
Btw, my mum was really in a generous mood yesterday. While I was at home designing clothes and doing my homework, she went shopping with 2nd aunt. She bought a toaster oven, rice cooker, three cds - Maroon5 [a Maroon5 shirt was also given but was too BIG for me], Linkin Park's Minutes to Midnight, and a chinese pop singer. I'm not really familiar with chinese songs but I think it's 'Prince' by Zhang Dong Liang...
Lol, my mum wants to improve my chinese so she bought a chinese cd. Best thing: She rented another three comics for me!!! Was so happy!

Visited Doctor John yesterday. The last time I saw him was two months back...and before that was last November.
The durations between the times I'm falling ill is shortening...Before November, it was June that I fell ill. Sheesh.
Read six novels yesterday. Liked 'Dixieland Sushi'. I got to take a break as Doctor John said to take 'lots of rest' and I used that as an excuse not to do any work ^^ Well, need to do my horrible homework now...
Btw, the cough mixture doctor gave me was really nice. Tasted like peppermint =]
Doesn't have any effect on me though-I'm still coughing like mad. Ah well.

I've been feeling drained out lately...the heat is really killing me!
My mum and I borrowed sixteen novels from the library this morning...And rented three comics - so nice of my mum =]
I've been feeling depressed and useless these few weeks. Well, guess must really try harder. Just that the whole pile of homework waiting for me just puts me out. Just looking at them makes me hate myself for being so lazy. Usually, I would have done all the homework by now, every single bit of it. And I must really get enough motivation to do some running already...I'm putting on more weight. That's coz I ate mocha ice cream last week =(( Plus, I haven't been exactly watching what I eat - been eating lotsa junk. You know, yesterday Yimin asked me if I ever been on a diet. She was quite thoughtful after hearing my response [ I said no ]. She said she couldn't understand why people go on diets either. Lol, i guess that's coz she hasn't been fat in her life before and is trying to be at least acceptable weight instead of being serverely underweight. Although I'd never been on diet before, I certainly thought of it. In fact, it's been on my mind more frequently now. Of course, I can never find the motivation to be able to turn down fattening food as most of the time, I haven't the heart to or rather, with the food in front of me, never seem to see the reason to. On the other hand, I really want to lose weight. Even if I'm not overweight, I'm not exactly slim either.
Doctor has ever said that I will weigh more than girls my age as my bone density is quite high. And I'm big-boned plus, I have a slow metabolism rate. Wouldn't it be nice to have a slim figure and not be so self-concious on how fat you look or how the fat rolls on your pudgy thighs while you walk? Wouldn't it be nice to be fine-boned and be able to look feminine and great? Wouldn't it be nice to have a fast metabolism rate and you can eat whatever you like and not be in the least bothered how on earth are you going to kill of those calories you've just taken? Wouldn't it be nice to be able to show off how good you look in a slim outfit?
The thing is, I've been cursed to be pear-shaped. Like the rest of the family-tree. We all may have slim or average waist, but I have a BIG, DROOPY bottom, and FLABBY thighs. Plus, I have flat feet. And while I may be wallowing pathetically here, it makes it even more miserable that while I could fit into a really small shirt that I couldn't fit into last month yesterday, my shorts are starting to get tight too. Wow, yes, it seems that I lost a teensy bit of fats round my waist or upper frame. But it does seem unfair that my thighs are getting fatter doesn't it?
You know, I fail miserably at losing weight. In the end, it doesn't even matter if you want to go on diet, it's about whether can you do it or not. I can't. Sometimes, you just flop and you just say, heck, why does it matter how people look at me like I'm some fatso? And at other times you whimper and tear up thinking, Why, oh why, am I stuck in this body with lard? Why? And why must they stare at me like I'm so disgusting? That I'm so fat?
Serious. It also doesn't help if you are no great beauty in the facial aspects. That you don't have any really unique features that will look nice. No, it will always be plain jane.
Now, I'm honestly sounding like some fifty-year-old woman right on the brink of menopause. Or some hormonal teen with PMS. Great.
Argh! This calls for some serious waking and running. Must try to wake up tomorrow to run at least seven rounds. Motivation much needed.

Oh my, this must be the longest post ever...Anyway, so.

I dislike homework...
You know, i forgot to post about this...Tuesday's choir practice, I was finally able to reach the highest note of the song...Amazing isn't it? I think Kalyn was quite surprised...My first attempt was when I went sharp...it was after that that I manged quite well...
If they choose to sing 'Those Dainty Daffodillies' for Speech day, then you will know how high is it...
By the way, here are some pictures of Hurricane Katrina that my mum emailed me, they were taken by a man in Magee, MS - Where the eye of the storm passed through.

They look phenomenal don't they?
You know, last night I dreamt of Primary school life. My closest friend was in the dream. Was so weird, coz it's like history repeating itself. It's like my dream is a tape of my life that's rewind. Looked through the yearbooks also....Hahas.
Btw, Si Hui posted about me on her blog. Take a look if you want =] She's such a good 'daughter'.

You Communicate With Your Ears

You love conversations, both as a listener and a talker. What people say is important to you, and you're often most affected by words, not actions. You love to hear complements from others. And when you're upset, you often talk to yourself. Music is very important to you. It's difficult to find you without your iPod.

Your Intrapersonal Intelligence Score: 74%

Your Intrapersonal Intelligence is High You have a great understanding of who you are, and your place in the world. You know what path you're on. And you are excited about your future. You're always deepening your inner knowledge and introspection. And enjoying it every step of the way.

You Are More Cutthroat Than You Think

Yes, you do have that killer instinct lurking in you. And while you may not be actually cutting throats anytime soon... You certainly don't mind clawing your way to the top.

Feeling ever so s-l-e-e-p-y

Choir yesterday was surprisingly easy...
Coz our rendition of "Those dainty Daffodillies" isn't perfect yet, we spent lotsa time on that piece plus "Stand By Me"...Haven't learnt "My Fair Phyllis"...
We also got yet another new score - "Las Amarillas", a traditional mexican song. It's a really complicated song and after tackling the first page, majority of us didn't want to sing it already. As it was the last half an hour, Mr Tay let us choose which song to sing - almost everyone chose "Stand By Me" coz it's like, by far, the easiest song to sing =]
And, Si Hui, if what you commented on my tagboard is true, then i shall ask everyone's opinion and ask them to put their comments there =] Hehs, this is quite stupid...anyway, I'm wondering if I should change my blogskin...

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Choir yesterday was alright. Just that it seemed a teensy bit weird that Airika, Germaine and other Sec4s weren't around already. Well, only Xin Mu came. Anyway, we learnt 'Those Dainty Daffodillies' and brushed up on 'Stand By Me'...Gonna learn 'My Fair Phyllis' today. Beginning next week I think, there will be practices on Wednesdays too - to prepare for Speech Day, whatever that is. Till now, I still don't know what's Speech Day...
Andandand, someone tag please...if not, what's the point of coming to my blog?
Gah~ You know, I've yet to ask Ms Tham why am I in Sop1... Though I don't think I will ever dare to ask her that...
During the auditions for the sections, I freaked out when she said I'm in Sop1...coz I was expecting to be in Altos or Mezzo...though I did really really want to be in Sop. But then again, I sometimes can't sing as high as my section ppl =( they can sing much higher...sob...hahas, wouldn't wallow anymore.
Gosh, gotta do my homework now...shouldn't be blogging at all!! Ciao.

Labels: Crez chorale, School Days

Went with my mum, ivan, sheree and my aunt and uncle to watch "Shrek 3" at Plaza Singapura.
Was a funny movie...Hehs, actually, it was thanks to the free tickets that my uncle got that my mum and I were invited =] They had six free GV tickets. The nachos there weren't nice at all though...I shared them with Ivan. Anyway, this is like, the second time I've been to Plaza Singapura. Nothing much there still though.
The best part of the movie was when Prince Charming was singing, "With soft and bouncy...hair....." Hahaha, he was such a twit >< Andandand, the Dronkeys are just so CUTE!!!!! Oh yeah, another favourite was on part when Donkey asked Puss why he doesn't wear pants as Donkey felt so naked without them while standing on two feet. HAHA...Well, it's really entertaining.....=]
I must really try to lose weight...getting fatter...when I wore my jeans today, it was quite tight at the bum =(( BUT there's good news... I'M TALLER THAN MY MUM BY AT LEAST 2CM!!! When mummy wore her heels today, I was still slightly taller than her!! Even my mum and aunt were amazed! I'm growing! Just not anymore horizontal I hope. It's always better to grow vertically than horizontally... -_