Something said today
Monday, January 30, 2012 @ 11:01 pm leave a comment? | 0 shed some light
Joey, Stefanie, Shaw and I were talking about which animal each of us bear a resemblance to this evening. It was mostly thanks to Abdul Matin who is still continuing with his cow jokes actually. Funnily, the animal they said I was like was a polar bear. I've gotten comments that I look like a hamster, a guinea pig, a bunny and even a cow (no thanks to Matin), but never a polar bear. I mean, polar bears are one of my favourite animals so I don't mind it at all. But it was quite a surprise to me all the same.
Stefanie went on to remark that I'm like a polar bear because of the wintry feel I give off. Shaw and Joey also agreed that I am quite a cold person at times. I never really thought that I appear to have a cold aura around me. To be honest, many have said that I'm a distant person despite my friendly exterior. I wonder if it means that I'm intimidating.
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Dragons are here
Friday, January 27, 2012 @ 5:40 pm leave a comment? | 0 shed some light
Happy Chinese New Year!
I'm pretty sure hardly anyone comes here anymore, since I've not updated the site for such a long time. Well, I've been a little busy recently. Projects have been coming consecutively and our class has been trying to tackle all of them. We've got no choice but to do nearly every CA only at the last minute because we were trying to finish yet another CA before that. My projects are issued back to back as usual. I know Year 2 would be tougher though.
Anyway, this year's Lunar New Year isn't as festive as the past new years. Mummy and I didn't prepare much this year. There's hardly any decoration around the house and we didn't do much for spring cleaning. Another thing that's different this year is the fact that my cousins have outgrown video games. I used to watch them play games like 'Halo' or 'Super Mario' every year but they seem to have tired of it. Most of them are more interested in gambling now. The few who refuse to gamble (like me) played cards and board games instead. I managed to win twice at 'Monopoly Deal' which is the card version of the traditional 'Monopoly' game. Everyone was shocked, considering how bad I am at strategic games!
Each year I see my cousins (and nieces) growing steadily. The older cousins are now starting to settle down one by one to have their own families. My aunts and uncles are ageing bit by bit too. Some are even grandparents already. It's a little scary how fast time flies. I have also found out that I have more cousins that I'd thought this year. I don't just have 17 cousins on my mum's side - there are more! I think my family is quite big sometimes. I might have some rich long-lost relative somewhere in Asia. Who knows?
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To talk
Saturday, January 07, 2012 @ 10:54 pm leave a comment? | 0 shed some light
I had a heart-to-heart talk with Mummy last night and today. I've not been myself recently. It's been a long time since I'd spoken so much to Mummy and it made me realise that keeping quiet isn't the best way to solve any problem. Everything just snowballs into a huge mess usually.
It's also the first time Mummy told me about the past in such a detailed manner. The two of us have our own different traumas and scars. I never stop marveling at how Mummy has brought me up on her own. My childhood wasn't as cheerful as most of my peers. I hardly laughed. It was rare for me to even smile to anyone.
I remember there was this pair of brothers who made me smile though. I can't remember their names or how they looked like anymore. I was in kindergarten at that time, and my parents would bring me to the playground near my school. I'm not sure if the playground is still there since I don't go back anymore, but it was near Gongshan Primary school and my babysitter's old place. We'd jump up and down on this 'bridge'. Sometimes the three of us would just lie down on it and stare at the stars. This was the only happy memory I had of my kindergarten days - even if the boys were not from my kindergarten at all. I never went back to the place after I graduated.
Funny how a simple childhood memory could still be so clear in my head. I might not know how the people looked like exactly, but I could remember how it felt on the 'bridge' and how pretty the stars were. I've always liked to look at the skies and make shapes out of the clouds. But I think I found out how pretty the night sky is like with the stars and moon too after knowing the two boys at the playground. I wonder how they are doing now.
Crying hurts
Sunday, January 01, 2012 @ 10:54 pm leave a comment? | 0 shed some light
Crying so hard for so long on the first day of a new year doesn't feel good at all.
I originally intended to blog about the awesome fireworks and events that happened on New Year's Eve, but I doubt I'm in the state to do so. I have yet to post about 2011 as a whole too. Seems like my first day of 2012 didn't turn out so well after all.
Sometimes I wish I had a sibling. So that I don't have to uphold so many expectations. So that I wouldn't be compared to the ideal daughter when there'd be another child to compare against instead. So that I'd have someone to confide in without feeling like I'm being a burden to him or her when I cry or speak.
Well, but on the bright side, at least I had a good cry. I just need to stop crying now. I can't seem to stop.
Happy New Year, everyone. I'm sorry for the sombre mood.
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