Repeatedly as always, I only caused you grief
as always I must have even hurt you too.
I remain unable to move
Why does your touch pain me so?

Surely it's because I was afraid of repeating history and losing you
We wiped away unforgettable days by nestling close together
You held my hand without any questions

Even if your feelings grow distant tomorrow
Surely my love will remain unchanged
Even I pass from your heart tomorrow
Surely my love will remain unchanged
I will walk together, the future not promised
It keeps walking together, to future in which you are ...

Along with the painful things -
almost to the point of forgetting -
I'm thinking of you

The more I count the nights on which we don't meet,
Anxiety grows in my chest
Collecting different types of loneliness; please don't cry alone

No matter how far apart we are, let's go on believing in each other
I want to remain smiling like this somehow
Without hurting you

Those emotions that had faded away with time,
I don't want to feel them again
Even if your feelings grow distant tomorrow
Surely my love will remain unchanged
Even I pass from your heart tomorrow
Surely my love will remain unchanged

Please, have eyes only for me
Please, don't let go of my hand
I will walk together, the future not promised
It keeps walking together, to future in which you are...

Labels: the GazettE, visual kei

I wonder if they sell alice nine's albums in Singapore. They rock. Seriously, I lovelovelove them.
Freaked out just now when I realized that we'd forgotten all about the food for tomorrow's outing. Gah. This is seriously the first time in my whole life I'm wishing that it will not rain the next day. Usually, I will wish that it will rain at least once in certain times in the day. I'm not making sense. I know.
I want hello, dear numbers 2006 dvd!!!
Lol, most probably they don't sell it here. Anyway, listened to Alice Nine and Abingdon Boys School this afternoon. =]] My mum thought that Alice Nine is a female singer as they have the name 'Alice' in their name. Hahas. Oh well, I have to go now. Bye. Gonna search for chicken rice stalls.

Labels: visual kei

Thank you Sihui and Cassy for giving me such wonderful presents. I almost forgot that my birthday is next month if not for you two. Time really flies. Anna asked me what I wanted for my birthday and I said a Porsche =]] Hahas. Still about two more weeks to my aging of one year I guess. Cassy gave Anna and me similar bears =]] they are so cute! And Sihui, thanks for the album! =]]]]
Mr Tan treated everyone to pizzas during lunch yesterday. Anna claimed that one of them was salmon pizza...it sure didn't look like it...even Ziyu was quite doubtful. But it was nice. Spend the rest of the time in the library and read one whole book in there. Ziyu lost her handphone while she was in the library and we went back inside to search the library for the phone. In the end, we went to the GO and reported it. Mr Tan was also there and he told Ziyu that she was really fantastic that she had lost her handphone just like that. Lol, it was a bit unbelievable but I think it slipped out of her pocket [ that's the trouble with slim phones ]. Anyway, luckily some kind souls came into the GO a few minutes before us and gave the phone to the lady there so Ziyu got her phone back immediately. Lucky her =]
Choir didn't start till four plus coz there were people using the seminar room. So all of us just sat outside the room in the arts con. and talked. It was really funny and the sec2s told us some, really things about Mr Goh and other teachers. Lotsa people also took out their decks of cards to play and Mr Tay commented that Anna's cards were lousy 0_0
Sang Mid-Winter and Joshua Fit the Battle of Jericho again. Juniper told me the story behind the song while practising. Then sang Las Amarillas after that. It was quite fun. No time to post more now. Ta.

Labels: Crez chorale, School Days

I wish 陈老师 all the best although it is sad that she will be resigning. Anyway, hope the next chinese teacher will be as good though I doubt so.
Will have to wait for about three hours tomorrow for CCAs to start again. It's seriously a long wait and we can't do much =/
My mum bought me this coffee-coloured bag for me =] there are lots of pockets. Don't really have much time to post much. Feel like it's meaningless to go to school if we can't do anything and teachers don't come to class at all.

Labels: School Days

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8McawYRJA0M
The song Akatsuki is damn nice=]
Burnt my fingers this afternoon while cooking - yeah, it's quite incredulous, but somehow, I managed to. Unfortunately. Continued on my cap designing. At least it looks somewhat nice now =] love my flower abstracts at times. Not much time left after switching blogskins. Will blog more. Ta.

Labels: visual kei

I've started listening to Alice Nine. I don't really like Yami ni Chiru Sakura but the rest are good.
In fact, they are great. They have two guitars and one bass. And Shou has good vocals - in my opinion of course. Okay, I really like this band...
I can't imagine that Sihui thinks that Gackt looks good as Genesis. Hahas, not my type I guess. Well, there's nothing much to post about coz my life is really stagnant. Hopefully, the new principal will be as good. Although I've only known Mrs Lee for only one year, she is a really great principal. The Sec3s chairpersons were crying after giving her the flowers.
I'm the only one in the class who listens to visual kei bands. The only ones that even listen to japanese music only listen to anime opening and ending songs - which are quite boring to me after a while. I prefer jrock...and of course, English rock songs =] the genre pop is also welcomed. C'mon people, visual kei ain't that freaky - except for those like Dir En Grey and D'espair rays.
Sometimes I feel that there's nothing in common to talk about to my friends coz I'm that different. Hahas, yes, I'm unique =]]]
This song is really fantastic : Blue Planet by alice nine
the live version on you tube is at :
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uC4yL3XxDG4

Labels: visual kei

After such a long time, choir finally started again. Got a new piece today - Joshua fit for battle o' Jericho or something like that. The last part is real high - for me at least...
Ms Tham was whispering to us throughout the whole thing coz she lost her voice. I think.
The MRT is really crowded during peak periods. Which includes evenings. I couldnt even see which station I was at due to the many TALL people surrounding me. Imagine how short I felt with a caucasian and other tall people standing around me, totally blocking my view. Thank God for ears.

Labels: Crez chorale, School Days

We did literally nothing in school today. Just wasted away in the classroom. The only thing that I'd accomplished today was the planning of the outing. We managed to assign the roles [ though most were left even more confused after that ] and decide on the food. We still have the back-up plan to deal with though. I'm starting to love the weather. Gloomy days are my favourite times...when the sun is missing and the grey clouds are abundant.
I wonder if they sell BIS's Believe in Style album in Singapore. Really wish to have it...anyway, I've just included this section of the albums that I want =]] It's redundant actually.

Labels: School Days, visual kei

How do those ladies go shopping for the whole day. I went shopping with my mum as my mum wanted to buy some shoes and clothes. The guy at the shop must have hated me to the core. While my mum was trying the shoes, she kept asking me which is nice. I just sat there and told her if it was awful or awesome. Anyway, that guy promoted this pair of shoes and my mum was also thinking of buying it. But, I said, " It's ugly as hell." I think the guy wanted to kill me just then. Anyway, with the help of the femle assistant, my mum bought three pairs of heels.
We then went to Vivo. My mum bought a vanilla coronet for me and tirimisu for her from Beard Papa's. With the notion of buying her clothes, we went to G2000 to take a look. The thing was, in the end, I got my heart broken. That's coz, my mum didn't buy anything but I got this dress [ my first dress after five years ] which set me back by $60 when I'm already so broke. I didn't think of checking the price again...Saw the price wrongly.
We walked around after that but didn't buy any clothes as my mum can't find anything that she wants - I had to drag her from the shoes section. Oh, and I finally know where is the Make-A-Bear Workshop!! It was so cute! But expensive. And my mum is really one of a kind. After coming out of the shop, I was gushing about how cute the bears were and my mum just uttered one sentence,

"Did you see the guy making the bear? He is very good-looking you know."

Yes, that was what she said. Sheesh. Went to Starbucks and drank green tea latte which is really good. I grew sleepy after that coz caffiene makes me sleepy somehow. My mum dragged me and we watched the fashion show for a while and headed home. Honestly, I can't stand shopping for the whole day, it was so tiring. But it was okay for yesterday. Went to the market just now and bought a bag for just $10 =]] That's really cheap.

Labels: teddy workshop.

I don't understand any part of the wayang show. Although i did not fall asleep - unlike Pearlyn, Harriet, Dao Xin, Verity and Tessa Sim, I couldn't get what they were doing. All I knew was that each time they jump on the carpet thing, more dust would fly about. Pearlyn kept make snide remarks about their performance and couldn't keep quiet till I asked Harriet if there was a roll of masking tape available. No offence Pearlyn =]]
The fire drill was weird. After the fire alarm came on, no one did anything till maybe 5 seconds later and all started screaming and running outside. Anyway, the whole thing ran smoothly.
Fell asleep sometime later during the talks. Was so tired. The motivation talk was rather interesting though. Topics such as the Law of Attraction which I'd already read about were covered. To me, everything depends on what you believe in. Where do you put your faith in. Somehow, if it does come true, those who do not believe in it will just dismiss it as superstition whereas those who do will feel that their trust is rewarded. It is not a matter of whether it works, but if your faith is in it in the very first place.

Labels: School Days

Tohoshinki is good. I must say that they are great dancers - their timing [ in the MV ] was perfect! Most of their songs are quite long though. Jejung doesn't look really great with bleached hair. But their dancing is really good.
Thanks to Sihui, the shirt designs are ready to be sent for printing. The thing is that some aren't satisfied with the words chosen for the front of the shirt coz it's too boring. I can see that it may need till next year before we get the shirts done.
I somewhat miss my previous hairstyle...it was so much nicer. If only I hadn't listened to that lady. I'm praying that my hair will grow faster and I can have the style back [ although Yimin says I look like a rock star ]. I want my fringe and tails!!!
I wonder just when are we gonna get our TPCs. It's taking a long time - bet we will only get it in the middle of 2008.
I'm feeling reluctant to return to school tomorrow. If only we can choose not to go back. I'm not looking forward to waking up at 5 again and rushing to catch the train. Kya~ why must it be only two days???

I'm posting after a hiatus. FYE is finally over and everyone is in their own happy bubble now.
As the paper ended quite late today, I met my mum for lunch. I got an album from the Popular there - this boyband Tohoshinki. My mum saw their album and asked if I knew them. Anyway, I wanted their album in the beginning of the year so yeah. It's nice =]
I've taken up drawing again. Yes, I did do three minor pieces in July but had to stop due to studies and the lack of free time. I'm now drawing a girl in manga-style. Hope it turns out nice. I'd stopped coz I was upset with my lack of skill and wanted to give it up. But in the end, the urge to draw overcame that decision. It was also due to encouragement given by a few people including my mum. Those who knew me in Primary five had thought I would join Art club in Secondary school. Don't want to though, as the teacher totally cramps my whole style. It's just that I will miss the skills that they will be teaching. I guess what Ms Wong [ my art mentor ] told me while she was still giving me lessons is true - that art can never end. Wonder how is she now. Unfortunately, she's not teaching at the yamaha / crestar centre anymore. Too bad I stopped midway.
Anyway, the class outing to West coast had to be cancelled as there's construction going on there. It wasn't an ideal venue in the first place.
Almost died while shouting this morning. Came to school with a bad sore throat and still had to shout to announce stuff to the class. I'm feeling better now though.
Well, shall return to drawing now. Ta.

Labels: School Days

Okay, I'm blogging just coz I finally have time to do so and that I'm sick of Sihui who's been bugging me to blog.
Nothing to post about. Except that the class went overboard today. Respect is not what everyone feels that is the basic criteria of being well-mannered. Anyway, I got pissed off today. Won't post about it coz it's just, well, depressing.
Well, I got full marks for my math. This shows that graphs are somehow my forte - well, at least better than inequalities. Hopefully, I will be able to ace my maths - yeah, I know that it's a well-known fact that I'm no good with numbers - I'm crossing my fingers. Algebra and angles are not much of a problem...I love graphs. But I heard that Sec2 graphs are really tough - so shan't decide to fast. Anyway, I'm hoping that most of the questions will be on linear graphs and histograms.
I feel wrecked. Ten more days. And three more days to doom. How apt.
Sinking into a deep slumber.

Labels: School Days

I'm really lucky that there was no mass run today. Had forgotten to bring my house shirt to school to change into...
There were so many surveys to do today - you could hear the collective groans from our class when Mr Choy annouced, "There is one more survey..."
Hopefully, we can send the shirt for printing earlier. I know I'm being very naggy but just tell me what word you want coz it's taking a long time. And also, if you guys are going overseas or have performances during the holidays, just tell the comm coz the chalet thing is COMPULSORY for all [ it's class-bonding ]. I'm thinking downtown east =]]
On a lighter note, I really wonder when I will stop embarrassing myself at least once everday. I was tired so fell asleep while on my way home. Then this guy who was next to me also fell asleep. The mortifying thing was that when the train stop, both our heads clashed together -___=" It's not my fault. I think. Anyway, he said sorry and to make sure our heads won't clash again, he leaned on his other side to put his head on his girlfriend/wife's head. They were in their mid-twenties. My mum laughed when she heard this and this was all she remarked,

"Too bad it wasn't a good-looking student."

Oh yeah, fell down during PE again. We were asked to run in the field. The place which I hate the most after it rains. Anyway, while everyone was running, you could hear the squelching of the MUD. Yimin also chose that time to scare me by saying that there was this red WORM in the SOIL. I did a great back slide while running to the base - the mud was slippery and I just slid down and hurt my butt plus my lower back coz I had no balance.
Talking about worms...it reminds me of something else which only someone as retarded as sihui will love : REPTILES. I walked with her to the station today and we saw this gecko/lizard reptile thing in the grass outside the condo. I was talking then and stopped to scream mid-way. It was running and Sihui was gushing about how "cute" the creature was while I was busy freaking out. She said I screamed three times altogether when the thing was scampering on the pathway. Reminds me of the time whereby I walked one big loop coz there was a toad right smack in the middle of the pavement near the grass patch outside the school. Wildlife ain't suitable for me.
Btw, these videos are funny. I know sihui, you love akanashi jin. Thanks to me, for introducing you to this boyband =]] Ueda's better fyi.
These are funny :
歌笑0621-KAT-TUN60分鐘的任務part1{ parts 2 and 3 are linked }
KAT-TUN bedtime skit

"I see fairies"
: 上田竜也 [ Ueda Tatsuya from KAT-TUN ]

Labels: School Days, Ueda

I find it ludicrous that Ms Vicky could forget to inform us about the mass lecture yesterday.
Only about fifteen people from our class attended it yesterday. Since there were five of us and we needed to fit in a few more details for our History project, we got Andro to take down notes for us while the four of us did the History project right at the back of the auditorium. We did manange to finish the entire thing though. The thing was that Andro, Sihui and I only went home at between four to five -Cassy had to go home earlier and Deb had council meeting.
The Lit debate was fun. Cassy looked quite feral while rebutting ^^"
Went out with my mum today. I'd wanted to wear my white heels but couldn't find them anywhere so decided to wear my brown pumps instead. You know, except for my sports shoes and sandals, all my other shoes give me blisters - especially heels. My black court shoes [which cost more than $100] are the only comfortable heels actually but that is to be worn with my choir gown I guess. Anyway, yes, my brown pumps gave me blisters too. And I've discovered how difficult it is to run for the bus while wearing pumps.
My mum rented yet another series of comics for me \(=^.^=)/
The only thing I absolutely dislike today was that we needed to buy groceries. I dislike shopping for groceries...it's so cumbersome... Oh yeah, I made another agar-agar this evening and it tasted GREAT. My mum can testify to that. Sorry to those who tried my agar-agar after practical coz I know that was a failure. I added too much powder, that's why. So I'm actually able to make delicious agar-agar, it's just that you were too unlucky to eat the batch I made on Monday, sorry. I didn't know it was that horrible till Sihui told me. Can make it up to you if you want. I can make another for you ^^

Please check the class tee/annoucement blog
- I've just updated it.

I'm having a bad sore throat. Wonder why I get sick so easily 0_0
Unfortunately, there was free period today, so had to try to control the class. Wasn't much of a help coz couldn't shout properly. Lol.
My mum gave me some herbal medicine to drink just now. It looked like sewage water and tasted much more bitter than bitter gourd. It's quite amazing that I'm still alive.
Mr Goh was unusually pleasant to us today. After burdening us with even more homework, he said something about cherishing those around you and stuff like that. He further added on that he will try his best not to scold us even if we don't complete our homework as his doctor asked him not to coz he has high blood pressure. 0__0
Sihui was having laughing fits today. All because of an innocent blunder I had made. It started yesterday when I actually was emphasizing on the spelling of "lucky". As I had other things on my mind at that time, I spelt it "L-U-LL-E". I think i may have some memory problem...coz I forgot what word I was spelling halfway and almost spelt out my thoughts at that time - which wasn't even relevant to what we were talking about. Sheesh. Ah well. Sihui couldn't stop laughing after that.
Well, there's the chinese test tmr...ta. For those who hasn't voted for the shirt design, please do so by 11pm tonight. All voting will cease then.

In three words I can sum up everything I've learnt about life: it goes on.
: Robert Frost

Labels: School Days

Just so you know, this is gonna be a long post. Here goes:

Labels: Crez chorale, School Days

Although I was dead beat today, choir was fun=]
Warmed up by running three rounds around the Parade Square and singing 'Twinkle Stars' with our legs stretched 45 degrees. It was really painful singing while feeling like your abdomen's gonna snap.
Coz we couldn't use the Arts Con. and the band was too noisy for us to sing at the mini forum, plus there isn't a piano in the MPR, we just stayed in the MPR and did some bonding. Revised a bit of Las Amarillas and the walk-in concert song. Then, came the best part [coz Ariel also couldn't find the right pitch without the pitch fork] all of us, gathered in a small circle in the room and some told us ghost stories. Some are real life experience and Kumitra said a poem that is like a curse, if you go down the steps saying it, it will determine your death and if you say it to the end, you will uhm, vanish? 0_0
Anyway, Laura and Kalyn came in just then and they thought Ariel was teaching us to mediate!
Tried our gowns after that. It was so awkward... Couldn't go to the toilet, so Kalyn helped me change to my gown.
Lunch was spent at Esso. Joey and I offered to shelter Zhuo Min and Claudia and four of us were wet. I was the one who was completely drenched. But I was consoled when I saw how wet Charlene was later [she ran from the bus stop to school without an umbrella].
The next hour of lunch was used in the studio room opposite. Yi Bin's piano playing is really great =]]
Warmed up our voices with 'Hark the Bell is Ringing' while walking in time [keeping the same beat]. Mr Tay then ran through the repertoire for the concert.
My section sabotaged the Sop2s today, just ask Ziyu =]] HAHAHAH. Sop1s rock the most anyway. Mr Tay kept scolding us about our section not being focused and decided to scold Sop2s too coz yes, they are Sops =]]]] And that for 'Mighty Wonder' , which we learnt today, they are singing the same parts.
All because of Juniper! Kept making Kalyn and me laugh while singing, that's why all of us got the wrong notes and the wrong bars.
Oh yeah, during sectionals, Juniper kept fooling about with her rendition of the intro of 'Mighty Wonder' that we were laughing more than singing. Anyway, Yi Bin and Juniper played the piano wrongly so we also got lost - Juniper said that's coz she has already retired [she'd got her diploma]. That's why Teryne called Mr Tay our 'savior' when he appeared in the room to help us after the Altos in the next room. Finished the whole song faster than the Altos as Mr Tay taught us some effective vocal techniques and our parts were easier. Though some parts were insanely high.
So when Mr Tay was still going through with Altos, Juniper decided to do some "Break-bone dancing" which failed MISERABLY. =] Kalyn and I were laughing our heads off. Kalyn, Teryne and Li Xin tried another step and it was all very funny.
When we were singing the whole piece of 'Mighty Wonder' Juniper exaggerated the singing and caused me to laugh again...Kalyn and Teryne also laughed and yup, everything went downhill once more. But we managed to do it quite beautifully the last time =]]
Love First Sopranos 2007.

Labels: Crez chorale, School Days

I owe you all an apology.
I'm sorry guys, that I'd shouted at you all in the hall today. Although you guys were in the wrong to leave the classroom with trash and took for granted that people will clean up for you, I shouldn't have shouted at you guys. I was just so pissed off that you guys just left without a backward glance and in the end, I had to ask poor Ziyu, Anna, Evange and Hanru to help me carry all the councillors bags and clean up the classroom. As we didn't have enough hands to carry the fruits left, we just left it inside. Which was why I was so angry. Coz there were some irresponsible people who just left their fruits inside to rot over the term break. In the end, Yvonne, who was really kind, helped Tessa Sim and me to clear up the mess when we ran back again. My shirt was soaked with perspiration in the end though =// But I must thank Yvonne and Ziyu's group for helping me.
But anw, that's not the point, the thing is that I shouldn't have just yelled. So, yup, I'm really sorry.
But please know that, no matter how much I shout at you guys, I do love each and every one of you 1C1-ers very much still =]
On a lighter note,
Teachers' Day celebration and Mass dance was fun. I like 4S3's class tee...it's so creative =]
And again, Keller didn't win anything =/ Oh well. Cassy and I were squashed by bony Yimin while watching the people dancing in the Parade Square on the second level. And Krystal really brought a LOT of durian...no one could finish it. Overall, it was quite a fun day - but it was really tiring running around and clearing trash bags...and the screaming =]
Crescent's the best ever.
Waited with Sihui at Tiong for her mum. Sorry Sihui, for falling asleep accidentally on the train.
After that, went back to SHPS and saw some of my ex-classmates. Later walked to TM and wandered about alone since the others wanted to watch a movie which I'm gonna watch with my mum already. Turned out that Sihui was also at TM after visiting her own school. Both of us then walked around and went to Comics Connections since Sihui wanted to LOOK at comics. Then while she was reading some BOOK, I tried to think up of suitable designs for class tee. My designs were ugly though =/

SIA suggestions
For those who read my blog often, please think of some suggestions for SIA.
Try not to choose water-related activities and those that require vigorous exercises.

Labels: School Days, teachers' day

Woke up at three this morning and fell into an uneasy sleep again at four and up at five. I was so tired...almost wanted to drop dead. Anyway, I was busy trying to coerce people into volunteering to give the sunflowers. Many didn't want to though. Ms Ho and Miss Pham are the hot favourite - almost everyone wanted them.
I managed to pass the note to five teachers during recess. Had to run all the way after Mr Samat coz he couldn't hear me. In the end, I was perspiring when I got back.
Walked home with Cassy, Andro and Sihui after lunch. They were talking about some comics stuff which had something to do with Cassy's birthday. I intend to buy her something unrelated to comics of any sort though =]

ATTENTION
People, I need ten more volunteers!!
Those who are interested in handing the sunflowers to our teachers this coming Friday, please tell me. These are the teachers that are still so-called "free" to send your sunflowers to:
Mr Ho

Mr Chan

Mrs Khan { Home Econs teacher for 21-40 }

Miss Teo { Home Econs teacher for 1-20 }

Mr Samat
- he's retiring, so this will be a chance to show your appreciation personally

Mr Choy

Mr Siow

Miss Shervon

Mrs Ow

Mr Teo


Ask me for more information. You are allowed to pair up with someone else to give the sunflowers and all will be paid using the class funds.
PS: It will be with accordance to the 'first come, first served' basis.

Labels: School Days, teachers' day