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Saturday, April 11, 2009 @ 6:44 pm leave a comment? | 0 shed some light
I realise that even with just a competition, it sure does reveal the bias nature of certain people.
Maybe it's just prejudice. However, I am really disappointed in the childish and ugly perception of those who just think of themselves and would rather put the progress of the whole group of us onto shaky ground just weeks before the competition. Things like that should be solved with some good talks and serious faces.
If only it were to be that simple.
I do understand the reasons that were given for their ugly behaviour. However, I wonder is it because I do not understand or that I cannot pardon the perverse rational behind the reasons, which led to my immense disappointment in the people in question.
What good will it do to affect a performance with such malice just for the sake of spite. Yes. I reckon it is spite which led to such ugly, shocking words and feelings. How childish and narrow-minded a person can be when they are so blinded with spite is shown almost everyday. Alas, I doubt I will want to step in - it will only backfire. I did so once, and was lucky that it was effective as I tried my best to shake her awake and open her eyes. It wasn't very effective though, seeing that she was once again influenced as easily by another person and has affected even more people with her words once more. I have no courage to speak to the one who really is the one who started it (although she did it without the knowledge of doing so) and am too tired and disappointed to speak to the other who is my friend, whom I've stated her responsibilities to just a month ago.
All these distressingly petty 'politics' will not end soon I expect and I'm really afraid that if neglected, will just portend some sort of internal dispute, thus affecting our performance.
I don't think getting a gold is the most important thing. Of course, it is really important to those who had taken part in 2007's SYF and I wouldn't understand the sadness they'd felt. But, I definitely do not want to have any regrets as this is my first and last chance to partake in SYF with my beloved Crescent choir, which is my sole outlet for my voice. I just want the choir to put in their best, do their best, think their best, show their best, and achieve the best. Who cares about gold with honours when the choir will be happy with their efforts anyway. I understood that part already.
It's funny. How the effects of WYCF last so long. Usually, when you attend some course, you wouldn't think so much about it. But I feel that it's a life lesson instead. Learning under so many conductors, learning their styles, studying their different gestures and facial expressions just so that you can understand them. Those conductors all left an impression on me and they made me realise something: The conductor, whoever it is, is the one who guides you and not makes you sing. Neither does the conductor need to make an extra effort to make you like the him or her. After all, the mutual passion for singing alone is enough to make up for anything. They are never our enemies, instead, I'd rather see them as the pillar of support a choir leans on during performances and the one who connects the sections in terms of singing.
Another thing about WYCF will be the choristers. Someone said it's because they are all committee members of their own choirs, that's why we never had any problems. Well, maybe that's the case. But for it to be the only reason...well, I beg to differ. The main reason is obvious. Even each conductor saw it, felt it, heard it and praised us for it. That is, our common love for music. We did have the usual problem of not being able to blend our voices for the first day, as it is for new choirs. But we did it in the end. Sure, all the choristers were strong and were all leaders. But never once did they act all authoritative - in fact, they did not hesitate to learn from anyone.
But of course, that is too much to ask for when it comes to this matter. I do understand that in every school's choir, at least 60% of the people who join were just interested in CCA points. And at least 20% of these people will rarely be seen taking part in the activities or they refuse to sing. With some hope, another 40% will learn to love choral singing and treat it as an actual art form.
I'm so sorry that this post isn't light-hearted as my other posts. I promise to post something light-hearted tommorow if I can find the time. Till then.
Maybe it's just prejudice. However, I am really disappointed in the childish and ugly perception of those who just think of themselves and would rather put the progress of the whole group of us onto shaky ground just weeks before the competition. Things like that should be solved with some good talks and serious faces.
If only it were to be that simple.
I do understand the reasons that were given for their ugly behaviour. However, I wonder is it because I do not understand or that I cannot pardon the perverse rational behind the reasons, which led to my immense disappointment in the people in question.
What good will it do to affect a performance with such malice just for the sake of spite. Yes. I reckon it is spite which led to such ugly, shocking words and feelings. How childish and narrow-minded a person can be when they are so blinded with spite is shown almost everyday. Alas, I doubt I will want to step in - it will only backfire. I did so once, and was lucky that it was effective as I tried my best to shake her awake and open her eyes. It wasn't very effective though, seeing that she was once again influenced as easily by another person and has affected even more people with her words once more. I have no courage to speak to the one who really is the one who started it (although she did it without the knowledge of doing so) and am too tired and disappointed to speak to the other who is my friend, whom I've stated her responsibilities to just a month ago.
All these distressingly petty 'politics' will not end soon I expect and I'm really afraid that if neglected, will just portend some sort of internal dispute, thus affecting our performance.
I don't think getting a gold is the most important thing. Of course, it is really important to those who had taken part in 2007's SYF and I wouldn't understand the sadness they'd felt. But, I definitely do not want to have any regrets as this is my first and last chance to partake in SYF with my beloved Crescent choir, which is my sole outlet for my voice. I just want the choir to put in their best, do their best, think their best, show their best, and achieve the best. Who cares about gold with honours when the choir will be happy with their efforts anyway. I understood that part already.
It's funny. How the effects of WYCF last so long. Usually, when you attend some course, you wouldn't think so much about it. But I feel that it's a life lesson instead. Learning under so many conductors, learning their styles, studying their different gestures and facial expressions just so that you can understand them. Those conductors all left an impression on me and they made me realise something: The conductor, whoever it is, is the one who guides you and not makes you sing. Neither does the conductor need to make an extra effort to make you like the him or her. After all, the mutual passion for singing alone is enough to make up for anything. They are never our enemies, instead, I'd rather see them as the pillar of support a choir leans on during performances and the one who connects the sections in terms of singing.
Another thing about WYCF will be the choristers. Someone said it's because they are all committee members of their own choirs, that's why we never had any problems. Well, maybe that's the case. But for it to be the only reason...well, I beg to differ. The main reason is obvious. Even each conductor saw it, felt it, heard it and praised us for it. That is, our common love for music. We did have the usual problem of not being able to blend our voices for the first day, as it is for new choirs. But we did it in the end. Sure, all the choristers were strong and were all leaders. But never once did they act all authoritative - in fact, they did not hesitate to learn from anyone.
But of course, that is too much to ask for when it comes to this matter. I do understand that in every school's choir, at least 60% of the people who join were just interested in CCA points. And at least 20% of these people will rarely be seen taking part in the activities or they refuse to sing. With some hope, another 40% will learn to love choral singing and treat it as an actual art form.
I'm so sorry that this post isn't light-hearted as my other posts. I promise to post something light-hearted tommorow if I can find the time. Till then.
Labels: choir, Crez chorale, School Days, SYF
