Splashes of the Past
Monday, April 19, 2010 @ 12:04 pm leave a comment? | 0 shed some light
The person I've become. What would those I'd previously known say if they see how I am now?
Sometimes, I feel that my childhood had been much shorter than my peers, because of the various events that took place within such a short period of time. I found myself maturing far more quickly that my classmates then. I grew independent. Yet lonely at the same time.
My fifth birthday wish was impossible to come true: I wanted an older brother. At that time, I still didn't have my 'bird and bees' talk and thought that a family could pre-order their children. Well, but of course I got distracted by my first pink bicycle which I got for my birthday instead. How easily children are satisfied.
Maybe it is indeed better for one to be the only child. After all, a sibling would steal your parent's attention and affection. Or parents would make comparisons between the siblings. That would be awful, I agree.
Somehow, the wish to have an older sibling has disappeared. But just sometimes, a small part of me wishes that my mum would be happier. I realise it's almost impossible to be happy with the job she has. That aside, I sometimes wished she has more friends to support her. She has given up so much for me. How great an unconditional love is - especially a mother's.
A chapter of my life has come to a small ending - I will need to focus on my major examinations now. My last choir performance was Speech day. Even though we sped up, we did well I guess. My beloved juniors prepared so much for our batch that I was too surprised and touched to say much in person.
I will miss choir so much. I wonder how it will be not to practise or perform for the months ahead. Some say they live to eat. Well, I live to perform. One of the times I feel the happiest would be when I'm preparing tirelessly for an upcoming performance and another would be when I finally get out there onstage and show what I'd worked so hard for, and to be under the limelight, receiving every one's encouragement. I really do love performing. Not being able to perform makes me feel helpless and stifled. I wonder what my future career would be. Of course, my dream is to be an artiste, or a performer. But it's kind of difficult. Plus, this country's entertainment industry is really small. There isn't even much of a market to start with.
I feel helpless.
Sometimes, I feel that my childhood had been much shorter than my peers, because of the various events that took place within such a short period of time. I found myself maturing far more quickly that my classmates then. I grew independent. Yet lonely at the same time.
My fifth birthday wish was impossible to come true: I wanted an older brother. At that time, I still didn't have my 'bird and bees' talk and thought that a family could pre-order their children. Well, but of course I got distracted by my first pink bicycle which I got for my birthday instead. How easily children are satisfied.
Maybe it is indeed better for one to be the only child. After all, a sibling would steal your parent's attention and affection. Or parents would make comparisons between the siblings. That would be awful, I agree.
Somehow, the wish to have an older sibling has disappeared. But just sometimes, a small part of me wishes that my mum would be happier. I realise it's almost impossible to be happy with the job she has. That aside, I sometimes wished she has more friends to support her. She has given up so much for me. How great an unconditional love is - especially a mother's.
A chapter of my life has come to a small ending - I will need to focus on my major examinations now. My last choir performance was Speech day. Even though we sped up, we did well I guess. My beloved juniors prepared so much for our batch that I was too surprised and touched to say much in person.
I will miss choir so much. I wonder how it will be not to practise or perform for the months ahead. Some say they live to eat. Well, I live to perform. One of the times I feel the happiest would be when I'm preparing tirelessly for an upcoming performance and another would be when I finally get out there onstage and show what I'd worked so hard for, and to be under the limelight, receiving every one's encouragement. I really do love performing. Not being able to perform makes me feel helpless and stifled. I wonder what my future career would be. Of course, my dream is to be an artiste, or a performer. But it's kind of difficult. Plus, this country's entertainment industry is really small. There isn't even much of a market to start with.
I feel helpless.
Labels: choir, Crez chorale, School Days, Speech Day
oh, I can see the sun shining behind you.
Saturday, July 26, 2008 @ 6:21 pm leave a comment? | 0 shed some light
This year's Speech day and Learning Festival had been integrated into a single day. Therefore there were more activities and it was much more hectic than last year. It was really tiring though.
For today's performance, it wasn't really our best but we did what we could at that time I suppose. Ms Ong forgot to cue our section in for our first page. Jolene said that we sounded freaky as our notes were very high =D She was standing right behind us on-stage with the band.
The audience was not really encouraging though. Most of them were still chattering during the band's and choir's performance D:
Right after the Speech Day performance, I had to rush to return the stand and change my top. I then went for my ushering duty. Most of the schools were late. I must say that it was quite fun but hectic. I had to carry refreshments for the performing groups and the drinks were HEAVY. I was running up and down, just to remind the groups of the time and that they are supposed to come down at least 10 minutes before their performance.
After the refreshments part was done, Ms Ang actually gave us drinks to drink too as there were many extras =DDD
We then gave out the Learning Festival leaflets to anyone who wanted them. I gave many to the band people =D It was quite difficult though as most of the visitors didn't want it or had already taken theirs at the foyer. When I gave the last of my stack, I went over to the teachers' stall to help in the selling of their items. I managed to persuade Clare, Christy, Ms Ho and a few others to buy from me. Ms Ho was really kind!! She immediately bought some snacks from me =]]]]
Before that, I'd also helped the 2C1 stall to sell their kuehs for a short while. Jessie and I cornered a Fairfield Methodist Priamary boy and coerced him into buying one XD
When Jessie saw that there was a girl from the same school walking nearby, she asked if they knew each other and when they said yes, she made the boy buy a kueh for the girl XD Poor boy.
For today's performance, it wasn't really our best but we did what we could at that time I suppose. Ms Ong forgot to cue our section in for our first page. Jolene said that we sounded freaky as our notes were very high =D She was standing right behind us on-stage with the band.
The audience was not really encouraging though. Most of them were still chattering during the band's and choir's performance D:
Right after the Speech Day performance, I had to rush to return the stand and change my top. I then went for my ushering duty. Most of the schools were late. I must say that it was quite fun but hectic. I had to carry refreshments for the performing groups and the drinks were HEAVY. I was running up and down, just to remind the groups of the time and that they are supposed to come down at least 10 minutes before their performance.
After the refreshments part was done, Ms Ang actually gave us drinks to drink too as there were many extras =DDD
We then gave out the Learning Festival leaflets to anyone who wanted them. I gave many to the band people =D It was quite difficult though as most of the visitors didn't want it or had already taken theirs at the foyer. When I gave the last of my stack, I went over to the teachers' stall to help in the selling of their items. I managed to persuade Clare, Christy, Ms Ho and a few others to buy from me. Ms Ho was really kind!! She immediately bought some snacks from me =]]]]
Before that, I'd also helped the 2C1 stall to sell their kuehs for a short while. Jessie and I cornered a Fairfield Methodist Priamary boy and coerced him into buying one XD
When Jessie saw that there was a girl from the same school walking nearby, she asked if they knew each other and when they said yes, she made the boy buy a kueh for the girl XD Poor boy.
Labels: Learning Festival, School Days, Speech Day
oo-er
Tuesday, July 22, 2008 @ 9:45 pm leave a comment? | 0 shed some light
My throat hurts after yesterday's singing D: It's not the usual sore throat - it feels swollen. Oh well, I just hope that I can sing well on Saturday. I must sing well. =D
Today's rehearsal was much more tiring than last week's. Everyone managed to arrive at the hall after warm-ups on time. Unlike Juniper, who loves the stand so much, I had some difficulties carrying it initially. It feels like I'm carrying weights...
Today's rehearsal was much more tiring than last week's. Everyone managed to arrive at the hall after warm-ups on time. Unlike Juniper, who loves the stand so much, I had some difficulties carrying it initially. It feels like I'm carrying weights...
Anyway, Juniper conducted us today. We had to walk in and out as usual, and remain on stand-by outside the hall too. And Ms Ong changed our standing positions today. For the first time, I'm actually the middle. It seemed weird at first, as I'm so used to standing at the side, but it's fine =]
Although the rehearsal ended at four plus, we practised further to touch up on the two songs. Compared to normal choir practices, at least we could go at five-thirty instead =DDD
I think I'm going to flunk my English and Chinese Language class test. The theme for the narrative essay was unexpected. My essay was just filled with crap. For the second test, it was just a plain disaster. I did not understand anything from the question paper and I was really sleepy then. My handwriting was illegible too and my correction tape was used up. I'd even cancelled one whole question and re-wrote it at a teensy corner. Let's hope I wouldn't get penalised for that. For the cloze passage, it was totally beyond my humble comprehension. It just seemed to be a jumble of Chinese characters to me. Sure, it was an article, but due to the "chim-alogy" or maybe I really am too dumb, I really couldn't get what the whole paper was about. Yes, I know I AM dumb. It's just that I feel extremely stupid now. Bleh, it's going to be awful when I get back the two papers. There's also the Literature test tomorrow and Math plus Physics tests on the day after. Is there such a term called 'Triple Doom"?
Labels: choir, Crez chorale, School Days, Speech Day
After a fortnight
Saturday, July 19, 2008 @ 10:57 pm leave a comment? | 0 shed some light
Although it was a Wednesday, I had to stay back mainly for the Speech Day rehearsal. There were many problems and most of the time, the choir was left alone onstage. Teryne and I felt like BBQ-ed pork - those that they sell at discounted prices during CNY and the shops will have some reddish light shining onto them. Yeah, there were red spotlights on us. Diu Diu Dang a was sung well on that day if I remember correctly, although we didn't sing that during the rehearsal.
There was also English oral yesterday. Our class got Mr Ravi as the examiner. I'm not sure if I will fare well for this exam as he didn't show any indication whatsoever. Reading was okay, but the Picture Discussion part was quite horrible. The photograph featured was about a few teenage boys accompanying young toddlers on floats in a swimming pool. All of them were males. I interpret it as: It is a collaboration between the NS guys and some Kindergarden school. This was partly because the reading passage was on NS Navy, and all the guys didn't look above 20. All of them had shaved heads too. So it should be okay if I said that right? Unlike others, he only asked me one question excluding "what do you think is happening in this picture". He asked, "What is the likelihood of something happening?". I was answering halfway when I forgot the question. That was when I stopped suddenly and asked, "Again?". I think he got irritated and he repeated his question. Hope I will manage to do well for this exam somehow.
My friend got into VJIP. Well, lots of people are applying for IP now. Let's just say, I decided not to try out for this IP thing as my grades are not good enough. Plus, I have already decided to stick to Crescent for four years and not two. Third reason would be that I know I will die from the workload in IP. Plain ol' me will always know what are my limits =]
But I kinda admire those who got in or are already in this programme. It just shows that they are really really really smart and they work fast. =O
Labels: choir, Crez chorale, School Days, Speech Day
Good-Looking Guys
Tuesday, July 31, 2007 @ 4:58 pm leave a comment? | 0 shed some light
These are some of the photos I took on Saturday...I'd wanted to upload them then but there was some error on Blogger=] All are just...whimsical. I usually take photos at the most random places...-__=
Today's Literature lesson was hilarious. We went to the MPR to act out impromptu skits. I had only one - thank goodness, considering the fact that my number is right in the middle =] well, you get what I mean. Anyway, I loved the one on these two girls [ Anna and Geraldine ] being head over heels about this guy [ Clare ]. Geraldine was so funny! When she saw Clare, she folded her skirt till it was high above her knees =]] Then while both were fighting desperately for Clare's attention, Clare announced, "Wait! I've got something important to say! I'm a GAY!!". Ms Vicky then commented that it's true - good-looking guys are always either married, attached, or GAY. LOL. Geraldine should act as a guy though...Lol. Anyway, it was damn freaking funny! Though Pearlyn, who was laughing hard accidentally dug her elbow into me, coz we were leaning back to back against each other. The next skit was about this couple [ father: Jessie, mother: Paveta ] whose daughter [Suet Yi] came home only after the curfew. Anyway, after a dialogue about preferring to chill in Snow City rather than "chillin" in the freezer with fish XD, Ms Vicky again commented. She remarked that that's how kids get into drugs etc. after she saw how many of us don't have curfews at all. Then Suet Yi said she stayed over at her friend's house till morning. Ms Vicky then asked, "What do you do at your friend's house? what's there to do?" Suet Yi said they played in bed. That sounded wrong and again, everybody ended up cracking up. LOL.
Ran mass run with Deb this morning. We could have ran faster if not for the crowd which was jamming up the whole path along the canal.
The overcast sky
Mee Suah [for my mum] , Almond Paste [mine- one of my fav]
On our way home....
the tofu clan
Mr Tofu
Mrs Tofu
Btw, I forgot to blog about Speech day=] The performance drew positive feedbacks. Farzina was so nervous that she started giggling...Don't understand what she was doing. We were all fooling around backstage before going out [ we were the first item ]. Everyone fussed about how they looked and Kumitra's blouse came out and she had to stuff it back in a hurry. I dislike smiling during performance though. Ms Tham told us we must be like Big Bird from Sesame Street, friendly and approachable, with the mouth wide open. Since it's the hall, the dynamics were changed to f, ff, fff. I was really singing my loudest already. Gtg now, ta.
Today's Literature lesson was hilarious. We went to the MPR to act out impromptu skits. I had only one - thank goodness, considering the fact that my number is right in the middle =] well, you get what I mean. Anyway, I loved the one on these two girls [ Anna and Geraldine ] being head over heels about this guy [ Clare ]. Geraldine was so funny! When she saw Clare, she folded her skirt till it was high above her knees =]] Then while both were fighting desperately for Clare's attention, Clare announced, "Wait! I've got something important to say! I'm a GAY!!". Ms Vicky then commented that it's true - good-looking guys are always either married, attached, or GAY. LOL. Geraldine should act as a guy though...Lol. Anyway, it was damn freaking funny! Though Pearlyn, who was laughing hard accidentally dug her elbow into me, coz we were leaning back to back against each other. The next skit was about this couple [ father: Jessie, mother: Paveta ] whose daughter [Suet Yi] came home only after the curfew. Anyway, after a dialogue about preferring to chill in Snow City rather than "chillin" in the freezer with fish XD, Ms Vicky again commented. She remarked that that's how kids get into drugs etc. after she saw how many of us don't have curfews at all. Then Suet Yi said she stayed over at her friend's house till morning. Ms Vicky then asked, "What do you do at your friend's house? what's there to do?" Suet Yi said they played in bed. That sounded wrong and again, everybody ended up cracking up. LOL.
Ran mass run with Deb this morning. We could have ran faster if not for the crowd which was jamming up the whole path along the canal.
The overcast sky
Mee Suah [for my mum] , Almond Paste [mine- one of my fav]
On our way home....
the tofu clan
Mr Tofu
Mrs TofuBtw, I forgot to blog about Speech day=] The performance drew positive feedbacks. Farzina was so nervous that she started giggling...Don't understand what she was doing. We were all fooling around backstage before going out [ we were the first item ]. Everyone fussed about how they looked and Kumitra's blouse came out and she had to stuff it back in a hurry. I dislike smiling during performance though. Ms Tham told us we must be like Big Bird from Sesame Street, friendly and approachable, with the mouth wide open. Since it's the hall, the dynamics were changed to f, ff, fff. I was really singing my loudest already. Gtg now, ta.
Labels: Crez chorale, School Days, Speech Day
